What Do I Do Now?

What do I do when the pain of the world becomes too much to bear?

The pain of life. The pain of circumstances. The pain of injustice. The pain of racism. Sexism. Poverty. Disappointment. Helplessness.

When another unarmed man is gone at the hands of a state-sponsored and “justified” killing. When my daughter runs towards me in fear when she sees the police. When the look of agony and unrelenting pain from another pierces my soul when speaking of their daily life experiences.

When the stories of defeat become too numerous to count.

When my communities are crumbling from both self-destruction and an all-out systematic assault.

When my questions seem not to have any answers. When my desire to inspire a generation seems fruitless. When hope becomes obsolete.

How do I stay encouraged when all seems lost?

When I have every reason to give up. Give in. Settle. Accept. Deal.

Two words — The. Light.

I lost because I let you make up the rules. -Tony Robbins

I have a choice. And I choose to believe that the light within is greater than any darkness in the world.

I am a warrior and no matter how many times life delivers a heart crushing blow, I look up…then I get up.

You see, I’ve come to realize I’m here for a reason.

There is me and there is death. And quite frankly, everything in between is up for grabs.

I ain’t going out without a fight, and I’m locked and loaded.


DEFEAT (v) – to overcome in battle

defeat(n) – frustration; setback

There is something powerful about considering the strength and tenacity of those who came before me. No matter how bad I may view current day trials, I am living in the most advanced moment in the history of the human race.

I come from royalty. From kings and queens. From the most HIGH. And I WILL conduct myself as such. Ya heard.

1. Regroup

Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside while still alive. Never surrender. ― Tupac Shakur

I must put mind over emotion. I must reorganize my thoughts, intentions and actions. I must tap into the power within, stay encouraged, stay motivated and think objectively.

I must become a woman of my words and my words say that no weapon formed against me shall prosper (Isaiah [54:17]), that greater is He that is within me than he that is in the world (1 John 4:4), and if God be for me, WHO can be against me (Romans [8:31])?

Feeling sorry for myself is not an option — it’s either I stand on and believe what I claim to believe or I don’t. Either or. No in between.

2. Regulate

Nobody can give you freedom. Nobody can give you equality or justice or anything. If you’re a (wo)man, you take it. -Malcolm X

I will set the standard.

I will establish what actions I can specifically carry out that will improve and change myself as well as my community. I will monitor my progress and readjust as needed.

3. Mount Up.

Liberate the minds of men and ultimately you will liberate the bodies of men. – Marcus Garvey

I have to elevate in order to overcome. Knowledge is power. I have to know the system that I’m trying to fight. Inside and out.

I can’t help my people, my communities or be an agent of change until I first help myself. I’m listening, paying attention, observing and taking notes.

Even in my silence, I am a calculated student of life.

There’s work to do and work, I will do.



I Affirm:
I am great.
I will redirect every drop of anger, frustration, disappointment, and hurt to focus only on the things I can change and then I’ll change it.

I Affirm:
I am mighty.
I will encourage myself when no one else will.
I will never accept defeat.
I won’t stop until I win.

I Affirm:
I am capable.
At this moment, I currently possess everything I need to accomplish everything I desire.
I can. I will. I must…Overcome.

About the Author Rook

It took life turning me upside down before I figured out how to live it right side up. Hopefully I can save you some of the trouble.

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