Part I: Why I Left the Church
And ye shall know the truth,
and the truth shall make you free.
"Some things aren't meant to be understood" is one of the worst statements I've ever believed in my life.
It was this statement in part, that would lead me down a long road of bondage, deception and defeat for many years to come.
Like many I've spent majority of my life in church and I've seen every angle. I've been the observing kid who was forced to go all.the.time and the "all knowing" adult who grew old but did not depart far from it.
There's no spirit-filled sermon I haven't witnessed, no justification I haven't heard for the many hypocritical actions I've seen, and no interpretation that I haven't heard given to counter the countless contradictions that exist between the doctrine itself, and the doctrine and actions of the people.
Interesting enough none of these things ever seemed to pose an issue for me because I held strongly to the belief that people and what they did was their business and my job was to focus on my relationship with God, because that was all that mattered.
I've witnessed, observed and been conflicted on many things but it is only now that I have released my mind, body and spirit from the bondage of man that I am able to truly understand and articulate this experience.
Many won't like it, many will disagree, many will cast me to the pits of hell because well, the cult church mantra is, believe as we do or else.
But despite what you've been taught I know that I as well as all of us have been "called". Called to be a light, to be seekers of truth and to elevate beyond man's interpretations of godliness but to the Truth.
For the first time in my life, I am free.
Free from the chains of religion.
Free from the detrimental traditions and beliefs that have plagued our families and communities for hundreds of years.
To be clear this is NOT an attempt to convince you to change your beliefs. That's the beauty of living in spiritual truth. Unlike religion, it gives you the power to live life freely and extend the same freedom to others, and to really mean it.
This is a clearing for me. It is something that I really had no interest in addressing because I know the nonsense that comes with it but my spirit wouldn't let it rest. So in my attempt to release, it has already been confirmed that these words will stir up a release in someone else.
And so shall it be.
I absolutely get our attraction to the church. I understand the history (as we've been told) but more importantly I understand the emotional fulfillment it provides, on the surface at least.
It's the connection - linking to other people who look like us, who have the same troubles and hardships, and it's the comfort of shifting all our of burdens onto someone else. It's the ultimate struggle oasis.
As with all religions many of the tenets of the church (giving, reaping & sowing, faith, as a man thinketh, etc) are universal laws so when practiced you will experience the benefits of righteous living, and that alone is exciting and promising enough to lock most in forever.
It's hope in a seemingly hopeless world and who doesn't want that?
Look at the number of churches with members who do have a heart for all that is good and righteous and work diligently to be lovers and givers. Who can argue against those who genuinely seek to promote positive change in the lives of others as well as in the community as a whole?
Honestly it was this spirit of love that kept me connected for so long.
Isn't this spirit what carried our ancestors through? Isn't this how our grandmother's made it and provided something out of nothing and endured?
This is and has been the foundation - our foundation. The church has been our saving grace.
Or has it?
On the surface, all of these things appear to be wonderful attributes. But despite everything I've ever been programmed to believe thank God two things continued to work - my eyes and my brain.
Look around. Most chu'ch folk are struggling. Mentally, physically and spiritually. Many are on depression and/or other psych meds, many are out of shape, sick, broke and on the brink of early death and many are unable to apply the principles they claim to live by and are barely making it or worst killing themselves??
Something isn't adding up.
Supposedly the problem is "the people". The people aren't reading enough. They aren't praying enough. They aren't believing enough.
But what about those who are?
What about the God-fearing folk who you know are living this thing out? Why no results?
How can you cast all your cares on Him but yet still be depressed (1 Peter 5:7) ? How can you be healed by His stripes but yet you're still sick (Isaiah 53:5)? How can you do all things but yet still be defeated (Philippians 4:13)? How did He come so that you would have not only have life, but have life more abundantly but yet there's no abundance in your life (John 10:10) ?
I have pondered over these questions for a long time. Asking God where exactly have we gone wrong. What is missing from this formula of ingrained routines and traditional ideologies?
The sad truth is most church folk have no power at all because church is a crutch.
And that's putting it nicely.
Church is really a joke. It's a social gathering where many go in order to gossip, judge other people, clear their conscious and pray about the ungodly things they've done the previous week, months, years. It's a place where we can release all of our accountability and responsibility and either blame the devil or "God's will". Oh and of course it's our obligatory act of belief to ensure we don't "go to hell".
Church supposedly means so much to people but they can't wait to get out as soon as they get there. It's ok when it's convenient or when we're in trouble but other than that we find ourselves separated from it, because well, "God knows my heart".
Church has taught people to look outside of themselves for wisdom, healing and direction. It has you believing that God actually created another human being greater than you. That someone else has been called, and you, well hell, I don't know what you're here for. I guess to follow the person who has been called.
Followers. That's what the church breeds. People only capable of following. No leaders. No thinkers. No power. No boldness. No one is able to speak those things that are not as though they were (Romans 4:17).
The church has people out trying to save the world but can't even save themselves. Oh the irony.
Look back as far as you can remember. Great grandmother, maybe just grandmother. Church going, church loving, God fearing people - and what were their results?
Abundance? Or struggle?
No one questions anything.
And no one finds not being able to question anything as strange. We are taught to believe that you are so weakly designed that you need someone else to interpret things for you. You need an intercessor.
Which would explain why people are falling apart.
The church is bad for yo' health - Physical. Mental and Spiritual.
Yup I said it and I know it may come off a little slanderous to those who know me simply because I rode with the church a long time. But know this, I wasn't given an option to choose the church, it was given to me.
Although this was done out of what was believed to be love, it was only after getting serious with my spiritual life and taking responsibility for my life and decisions as an adult that I found this in fact wasn't love at all.
Any faith that does not equip you to build, empower and govern yourself, is simply one that cannot be trusted.
Unfortunately that's why I'm never surprised when I hear that another pastor has committed suicide.
The fact of the matter is, when you believe that you have no control over what happens in your life, you relinquish your power and are susceptible to anything - that usually being defeat.
You will find yourself on a never ending spiral of disappointment, heartbreak, and hopelessness -- aka stress!
And you'll keep trying. You'll keep praying, You'll keep having faith and life will just keep kicking your ass. Why? Because out of all the things you've been taught the key component you needed was left out - how to stay tapped in and turned on to your divine self, your divine power.
The real ugly side of church is that you no longer have a mind of your own. And if you study the origin of religion and churches in particular you will find that this was the intent all along.
Control. If one can control your life line, your savior...well my friend, they can control your thinking and ultimately - you.
I simply challenge you to ask yourself some basic questions:
Why did God give you a brain if you needed someone else to tell you what to do?
If Israel are God's chosen people then what does that make you (1 Chronicles 16:13)?
If your body is a temple why do you trash it with junk food and toxic substances every.single.day (1 Corinthians 6:19)?
Don't you find it strange that out of the entire book of the bible from year to year, only the same scriptures with the same sermon themes are preached?? Is there no revelation or good word in the other hundreds of pages??
Who did your ancestors pray to before slavery? If it wasn't Christianity, where are they all now? In hell?
If your spirit is what goes to hell, not your physical body, how do you burn in fire and brimstones forever. How exactly do spirits burn?
A better question is, have YOU even read the bible yourself or just the parts they go over in church?
But here's my favorite, where exactly is this kingdom that you're waiting to come when Jesus said...
And when he was demanded of the Pharisees, when the kingdom of God should come, he answered them and said, The kingdom of God cometh not with observation: Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you. And he said unto the disciples, The days will come, when ye shall desire to see one of the days of the Son of man, and ye shall not see it. And they shall say to you, See here; or, see there: go not after after them, nor follow them. Luke 17:20-23
Translation: Now having been questioned by the Pharisees as to when the kingdom of God was coming, He answered them and said, “The kingdom of God is not coming with signs to be observed; 21 nor will they say, ‘Look, here it is!’ or, ‘There it is!’ For behold, the kingdom of God is in your midst.” 22And He said to the disciples, “The days will come when you will long to see one of the days of the Son of Man, and you will not see it. 23“They will say to you, ‘Look there! Look here!’ Do not go away, and do not run after them.
WHAT IS TRUTH?
This thing goes so deep that I couldn't possibly touch on everything in just one post.
Although it may seem like it, I'm not attacking the church or the people who attend.
No seriously, I'm not because the church has been an integral part of my life for a very, very long time. I just now understand how it all works and unfortunately from my observation despite the good, there are some seriously bad aspects that are doing more harm to people than good.
What the church represents, what it promotes, and what it encourages on a larger scale is where I have a problem.
Quite frankly it's where we all have a problem - a systematic problem.
Doing or being a part of something is one thing, but knowing why you do it is something entirely different.
Don't you find it strange that you see more and more churches being built but the condition of the people continues to deteriorate?
Churches are not only not addressing the major issues our people are facing -- health aka food (which leads to physical decay which leads to mental decay which leads to spiritual decay) they are acting as willful contributors of trash food and lifestyle habits (we'll explore this more in Part 2).
But that works out just fine, because the more dilapidated your mind is the less we have to worry about you questioning anything or thinking for yourself.
Despite the lies we've accepted and the power we've relinquished, the time has come to take that power back.
No one or no church can save you because if they could they would have already.
One day I woke up and was quite pissed to realize all this time I had been deceived. I had become what I dreaded, one who could not and did not think for themselves.
The good news is that my spirit confirmed one thing that has ultimately blown the lid off of everything else...YOU have the power! YOU!
I offer that same affirmation to you. You have the power. To walk this life out the way it's supposed to be done. Healthy, wealthy, and in abundant love, light, peace, and TRUTH.
Only you can unlock your chains. But no worries, you have the key.
Part 2: To be continued...
- Ask yourself do you know what you know, or do you know what you've been taught?
- If what you believe is the absolute truth, why are you afraid to research anything that contradicts your beliefs? Truth will stand up against anything, right?
- If you're ready for truth, surrender your mind from your own ego, express your willingness and readiness, and ask divine spirit (God) to open your eyes to truth.
If you're interested in understanding or exploring the answers to any of the questions I posed or to questions you've always had in regard to really understanding the bible, I would suggest starting by reading The Hidden Mystery of the Bible*. But ONLY if you have cleared steps 1-3. If not, know that you are not yet ready or capable of receiving the information that will be presented.